I’ve been absent. For almost two months now, and I’m so sorry for my absence.
I’ve been trying to think of how best to explain this, and it’s just not an easy thing to explain. I used to blog regularly on my blog of random stuff, and then I stopped for a very specific reason. I let someone else have power over me that wasn’t theirs to have, and because of that, I stopped writing.
I promised myself when I started this blog that I was going to be myself, and if people liked it, awesome, but if not, oh well. And I have been myself, and I’ve been enjoying writing again. Yes, I share pictures and business related things, but this blog is also for myself. And a couple of months ago I found that someone had been using it to gain access to me, which made me uncomfortable. So I stopped. Again.
I’ve had so many things I’ve wanted to share recently, particularly with the holidays, but I felt violated, like I couldn’t share anymore. AGAIN! And what is even more infuriating is that these feeling were self imposed! I was ALLOWING this person to make me feel hthis way. I was ALLOWING them to have that power. And I’ve come to the realization that that allowance is, for lack of a better word, bull****.
I can share what I want, and be myself, and I will be. This person does not have control over me, and they never will ever again.
SO having said that, get ready for a flood my friends. Well, as much of a flood as time will allow at least. :) I have months of pictures stored up, things that Kaden has said, fun events that have happened, and I’m looking forward to taking my power back, and being able to share again. It will be hard for me to overcome these feelings, for me not to be creeped out, but I’m going to make every effort to get past them. To be myself, be happy and comfortable doing so, and not let anyone mess with that. Not on this blog, not in my life, not ever again.
It will be hard, so be patient with me, k?
Happy Wednesday people, hump day!